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Wednesday, July 7th, 2010

Subject:За кого ты выйдешь замуж?
Posted by:cmsmees6.
Time:8:08 pm.
За кого ты выйдешь замуж?
Comments: Burn Don't Freeze.

Saturday, February 18th, 2006

Posted by:kaceyjane.
Time:12:22 am.
1350+ members. Self Injury/Suicide support community. Anyone can join.
If you SI, used to, think about it, know someone who does, etc; feel free to join.
It isn't pro or anti SI, it for support, and support you *will* get there or could give.




It's like a big family more than anything, with new people coming
everyday & sometimes people feeling recovered enough to leave.

It is a safe place to go and let things out, ask for help/advice
or anything of that sort; and it will continue to be safe too.

Remember to read the rules if you join, they're easy to follow but very important. :)
Comments: 1 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Tuesday, April 5th, 2005

Posted by:gametic.
Time:8:42 pm.
Mood: crappy.
Hi, My name is Alice and I have been cutting for a record of five years. Most were out of anger and resentment toward my family. I never thought of it as a hobby till now (I obviously need help -_-). My life is falling to pieces and I am sure I am not the only one. Cutting myself helps me realize I am still alive...
Hell, I can't even believe I made it to college. I tried to change my life, I tried coping with life in general and as of last month, things went down hill. I started a more extreme kind of sadisitc hobby. Burning. It hurts...but I need the pain. So many scars to remind me of the times I could have died.
Sure, I'm somewhat "normal" on the outside, normal as a teen can be anyway. But doesn't psycho's look just like everyone else?
I'm miserable, depress and lonely. Who could blame me, I push people away. It's all for the best.
I can't say I wear a mask. If I'm happy, I let the world see it. If I'm sad, I make sure everyone's day is as crappy as mines.
Friends and family know of my scars and they love to tell me how much of an idiot I am. Thank you. I know its stupid to cut oneself's body, but if they weren't giving me so much crap in the first place, I wouldn't have done it.
The strange thing is, is that I love it. I love to hurt myself. I love to hurt myself more than people do, because it gives me the satisfaction that I am in control of my own life and emotion.
I have no one trying to help me with this problem, aside from me. Some friends they are, eh? My family could care less, as far as I know.
My scars are way of expressing myself, to show my pain to the world.
Comments: 1 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Monday, January 17th, 2005

Subject:The dorky new user post
Posted by:theoreticlmufin.
Time:10:52 pm.
Mood: awake.
Hi, my name is Katie & I just joined. I'm nearly 16 and I've cut for about three years. I started cutting partly because my dad is emotionally abusive and partly because I've always felt somewhat worthless and alone. When I was a kid and I was mad at my mom I threatened to cut off all my hair (I think I was about ten) to make her understand how upset I was. Not that that has anything to do with self-injury but I guess it shows my natural mentality of "you'll-never-hurt-me-as-much-as-I-hurt-myself".
I am trying to quit right now because I finally have a support system and I don't want to be unhappy anymore. I have a friend that's bulimic and another friend that cuts so we're all trying to quit together. Our boss/mentor is really supportive of us, she's like the mother I wish I had. I might go live with her this summer if things get bad at home, but we'll see. Anyway now I have people that care about me, and I'm trying to rise above all this.
Anyway, hi. Great community and I love the title.
<3 Katie
Comments: 2 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Wednesday, December 8th, 2004

Posted by:empyre_starlet.
Time:5:36 pm.
Hey, my name is Alethea. I was just browsing communites and I came across this one. I used to cut, alot. All over my body, my hips, breasts, arms, and ankles. I have been 'clean' for about 6 months now and I am proud. The urge always comes back and I have cut once ever since. It is really hard when you are addicted to something like that because for me, I know I dont want to die, It just takes ht epain away and sometimes I love the feeling. Lately it has been hard for me, real hard. So I joined to give and get some support. I know what it's like...trust me
alethea
Comments: 2 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Friday, September 24th, 2004

Posted by:mylovedied.
Time:12:58 pm.
so today i get home from school and of course my mom starts yelling at me again! go me
so i cant find anything again to cut myself with so i grab the metal POS cross my sister gave me with sharp edges andtake my lighter and start burning the cross... i take this burning cross and put it to my skin... shit did that fucking hurt. but when the pain subsided... eventually it felt great... i hope it leaves a mark becuase it looks pretty cool.. i guess if a burn can look cool...i think i need to do it a couple more times in the same place to get a really cool effect on it! anyways my life sux

which is worse...
dying on the inside
or haveing a life to live
on the outside

~melissa~

PS from the burn.. i got a cool blister and i keep picking the skin off for an even cooler effect... and i didnt even cry this time hurting myself, i was thinking of all the shit bad that has happened and took it out on myself in a way i wouldnt care about!
Comments: 4 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Tuesday, July 27th, 2004

Subject:name's em
Posted by:outofcontext11.
Time:12:34 am.
Mood: ....
hey, i'm new here. i'm a cutter/burner and i've been trying to quit. so far i've gone two weeks without any SI. i joined this community because very few of the other SI communities seem to have very many burners. i guess burners are the outcasts of the outcasts? anyways...just wanted to say hello.
Comments: 3 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Tuesday, July 20th, 2004

Subject:hello
Posted by:detachmyeyes.
Time:10:29 pm.
Mood: bitchy.
hi, my name is maria, im 17. im currently trying to quit smoking weed, and im trying to end my eating disorders... i just felt like joining this community i guess. yay.
Comments: 1 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Thursday, April 15th, 2004

Subject:Please Join!
Posted by:mymagicwardrobe.
Time:10:32 pm.
Hi everyone, just another quick note to remind you about my new community protege_moi created especially for people with problems such as depression, cutting, ect, but a place which can also be used to simply vent angry feelings or whatever. It's only been up a week and there are already nearly 100 members, making the community very active. The more members, the better, so please join if you interested :)

~Saria

P.S I've tried to remember which communities won't allow advertising and filter this out of them, but this is going to be the last notice for the community so if I've accidently put it in a community it's not meant to be, please don't sue me :)
Comments: 3 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Monday, April 12th, 2004

Subject:Come Join!!
Posted by:mymagicwardrobe.
Time:10:16 pm.
Hi Everyone!

You might remember reading about my new community protege_moi last week. Well, since then, we've gone from 0-59 members! The community is fantastic, there are only very few rules, pretty much anything is allowed, you can post just about anything you like from poetry and quotes to normal journal entries. Anyway, the group has been growing more and more everyday, so if you'd like to join an active, flexible community please come and join soon!!

~Saria
Comments: Burn Don't Freeze.

Thursday, April 8th, 2004

Subject:New Community!
Posted by:mymagicwardrobe.
Time:2:20 pm.
Hi All!!

I've created a new community with people who have problems like, cutting, depression, eating disorders, ect to 'vent' in. I hope you'll join, I've made the name French (the english meaning is 'Protect me') so that it's a little more private in case you have RL friends you want to be discreet with on your friends list. There are very few rules and it's a really easy-going community, so please join protege_moi if you'd like :)

~Saria
Comments: Burn Don't Freeze.

Sunday, February 1st, 2004

Subject:never pictured myself leaving,
Posted by:pinkspirit.
Time:1:12 am.
Mood: nostalgic.
but over & out,
i wish you all the best of everything in life

<33
Comments: 1 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Thursday, January 29th, 2004

Subject:Whoa!!!
Posted by:dirtysouthdyke.
Time:7:30 pm.
I just got on her for the first time in a while. I got to read all the gorey details of my wife's new relationship. They went on a cruise and they are getting married etc.. Boy I'm glad I'm drunk otherwise I would probably run into the woods with a knife and kill myself. Time I quess to accept that she is never coming back and happy witht he person she dumped to be with me. How ironic. I really didn't think karma was allowed to nip you i8n the ass over cases that you do something that hurts someone but it is done out of love.
Comments: Burn Don't Freeze.

Saturday, January 3rd, 2004

Posted by:xxandsoweburnxx.
Time:10:11 pm.
i feel insane.

it was 9 cuts last night

all at once.

i've never cut that much at once.

and i've never let it bleed like that before.

i fell asleep afterwards

when i woke up it was about 3 in the afternoon...and i felt sick

so i threw up and went back to bed

and when i woke up again it was around 7

and i started cutting

10 more.

and just bled. and bled and bled.

so i pulled my sleaves down and ignored the pain.

but i knew it was there.

and so now my hands are shaking, my arm hurts insane amounts and i'm crying

i dont know what to do

i need to do something

there has to be something i can do.

i need help.
Comments: 4 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Wednesday, December 31st, 2003

Posted by:rastaxcore.
Time:12:47 pm.
scene mafia community.

(.dancelikehardcore.)

join.

your parents would be proud.
Comments: Burn Don't Freeze.

Subject:i feel..oh so terrible.
Posted by:xxandsoweburnxx.
Time:12:25 am.
Mood: oh-so terrible..
(i'm new..thought i'd say hi*wave*)

so, today before work the scar thing came back.

my parents were arguing about how i have to wear long sleaves because it'll make them look bad.

i said that i can't or i'll get overheated and it wont be good.

and they said that i'm a fuck up.

and i went for a walk. to kinda clear my head. i tried to avoid being in my room afraid of my knife and everything.

some kid called me fuckin dumb because some of my scars are in the shape of an x.

i cried. because i'm fucking emo like that.

i guess i've kinda lost hope on becoming better.

i guess i never really had hope.

i dont know really what to do.

i guess i joined to try to find somebody to talk to.

since i've really got nobody left.

ben (bestfriend/boyfriend) i can't talk to.

i'm too scared about hurting him and making him worried.

i know he'd be supportive, he has been before. but i just dont wanna let him down.

yah know?

ever since i've gone straight edge i've gotten shit about how i'm not really straight edge since i cut.

i'm so sick of it.

i can't fucking help it.

i really can't stop.

i just know tonight, i crawl into my bed..under the covers and just cut and cut and cut. it doesn't matter where...i'll just cut. till i feel too dizzy to do it anymore.

and i'l collapse on my bed and cry and bleed till i fall asleep.

why oh why does this hurt so much?

oh fuck, somebody help.
Comments: 3 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Thursday, December 18th, 2003

Subject:just joined
Posted by:dirtysouthdyke.
Time:3:04 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
hi I just hooked up with this community today because my others were quite boring. seems like there may be a pulse here. Hi everyone. @4 from SC and NY
Comments: Burn Don't Freeze.

Wednesday, December 25th, 2002

Posted by:jupitergarden.
Time:11:09 pm.
hey, i'm maya, i'm 18 and i feel AWFUL right now.

i feel really, really shit so i just joined about 20 SI communities in the random hope that someone will talk to me.

christmas is a really evil time for me - my family are just these weird people i don't know, who sit in front of the tv and scowl at me. i feel really lost and alone and of course, i've been cutting like mad. and i hurt.

so, yeah. sorry for cross-posting. i'm definately just looking for attention - i just feel really lost bcus everything is going wrong. anyway. yeah. i'll shut up now.
Comments: 3 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Sunday, March 24th, 2002

Posted by:xxstickerifficx.
Time:9:35 pm.
Mood: depressed.
ok hello there. i just joined this community. i kinda felt like i had to. anyways... lately, i have been, very unhappy, and i have not been able to find a GOOD ENOUGH reason for me being so depressed. my life has just not been going very well lately. i am hoping so much that things will turn around very soon. i cant stand not being happy. what should i do? my mom keeps telling me how much of a little shit i am and cant stop making me feel like i really am shit, i am soo horrible at my school work, iam now trying to do better, and my suposedly KINDAbest friend kant seem to keep away from the boy that i like(who has told me already that he only wants to be my friend). i try to think to myself that this is no reason to be so sad. but it is all i can think of. eh oh well, what am i to do?, its not like i can talk to anyone about that one, iam too scared to. i dont reelie cut miself i have before but, havnt in a very long while, n i might if i dont become a happy little girl soon, i am goin to try so hard to controll myself.
Comments: 4 In the fire - Burn Don't Freeze.

Posted by:xxstickerifficx.
Time:9:35 pm.
Mood: depressed.
ok hello there. i just joined this community. i kinda felt like i had to. anyways... lately, i have been, very unhappy, and i have not been able to find a GOOD ENOUGH reason for me being so depressed. my life has just not been going very well lately. i am hoping so much that things will turn around very soon. i cant stand not being happy. what should i do? my mom keeps telling me how much of a little shit i am and cant stop making me feel like i really am shit, i am soo horrible at my school work, iam now trying to do better, and my suposedly KINDAbest friend kant seem to keep away from the boy that i like(who has told me already that he only wants to be my friend). i try to think to myself that this is no reason to be so sad. but it is all i can think of. eh oh well, what am i to do?, its not like i can talk to anyone about that one, iam too scared to. i dont reelie cut miself i have before but, havnt in a very long while, n i might if i dont become a happy little girl soon, i am goin to try so hard to controll myself.
Comments: Burn Don't Freeze.

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